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i used to be so optimistic...
i made all these plans and now i'm not sure if any of my dreams will ever come true. i hate to say it out loud or put it in writing... but at this point i don't know anymore.
i'm 21, i haven't done 1 thing i wanted too yet. i thought i'd be so much further along in the stuff i wanted to do by now. i've got 6 months of school for hairdressing (which i only want as a back up job) don't get me wrong, i like learning it. but i wanted a job, an apartment, to travel, my studio, to publish my books, to try and start my band....
i feel like i'm stuck in the same rut i have been for 7+ years. why can't things change? why won't anyone let me change? i can't even be myself right now, and the worst thing is, NO ONE knows.
i hate faking a smile, pretending to be happy
i made all these plans and now i'm not sure if any of my dreams will ever come true. i hate to say it out loud or put it in writing... but at this point i don't know anymore.
i'm 21, i haven't done 1 thing i wanted too yet. i thought i'd be so much further along in the stuff i wanted to do by now. i've got 6 months of school for hairdressing (which i only want as a back up job) don't get me wrong, i like learning it. but i wanted a job, an apartment, to travel, my studio, to publish my books, to try and start my band....
i feel like i'm stuck in the same rut i have been for 7+ years. why can't things change? why won't anyone let me change? i can't even be myself right now, and the worst thing is, NO ONE knows.
i hate faking a smile, pretending to be happy
back now :)
I first made my profile here in 2013, it was my first social media site and I loved it. I missed out on myspace and eventually I signed up for Facebook and Instagram, but a lot of my friends came from here. I've always loved different forms of art, and while I haven't posted anything great on my profile here, I've enjoyed the site a lot. Around 2017 I got really busy with life and came here less and less, but I do miss it. Facebook seems to be filled with political old people and Instagram has gone downhill and has so many adds now. I know this site has changed a few times and lost a lot of users, but I still think it's better then some of the options we have now. I'm not even sure how many of my old friends are here anymore, but I'll try to post more and connect with new artists
Happy New Year!
Happy new year everyone!
There has been a lot of collective bitching about 2016, and while this year has had a lot of ups and downs, I've learned a lot and do have a lot of positive things to say about it.
I've had a job all of 2016, that is something to be thankful for in Alberta's economy and high unemployment rate. I have saved up a lot of money and would really like to do a lot of traveling in 2017!
I did get meningitis in January and that was very scary, but I had a lot of very good doctors and nurses doing there jobs excellently to look after me.
Besides a few bad eggs, almost all of my coworkers have been amazing, making work an ov
Hawaii!!
well I've been working like crazy lately, I'm going to Hawaii in January 7-25 with my family. But i have to work extra to cover the days. I'm really excited to get a break and plan to take lots of pics!
optimistic
Hello everyone :)
I'd like to give you all a little update.
Over the past year I have been working at a Great Clips, I still live with my parents so I have to drive 45 mins to work and back. And also for the past year I've been seeing a guy from my city, technically we have only been friends. But I fell in love with him and he will be getting an arranged marriage to a girl his parents picked out. So most of my summer was spent being depressed and crying about that.
Besides work and that guy? Not a lot. I stopped reading, writing, drawing, photography, dreaming ect.
I would go to bed as early as possible and sleep as late as possible, jus
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Being a Hobby Musician , I can really relate to this. And I have other dreams too... I cnstantly think about stories and put some work into it every now and then, yet publishing something seems so far away. The trick is; don´t spend too much time learning stuff or preparing yourself... when I started making music, I really sucked at it. Me and my former classmate Patrick started making music together and we didn´t give a damn how bad we were. We just wrote songs, recorded them and everything was so terrible. We never really stopped though. Meanwhile we´re both ok at writing songs/singing/composing etc. ... If I had waited until I felt like I´m a good musician, I would´ve never written a song to this day.
Whatever you want to do, don´t be afraid to suck at it. You´ll only get better / reach the point where you feel ready - by actually doing it...
Whatever you want to do, don´t be afraid to suck at it. You´ll only get better / reach the point where you feel ready - by actually doing it...