optimistic

Hello everyone

I'd like to give you all a little update.

Over the past year I have been working at a Great Clips, I still live with my parents so I have to drive 45 mins to work and back. And also for the past year I've been seeing a guy from my city, technically we have only been friends. But I fell in love with him and he will be getting an arranged marriage to a girl his parents picked out. So most of my summer was spent being depressed and crying about that.

Besides work and that guy? Not a lot. I stopped reading, writing, drawing, photography, dreaming ect.
I would go to bed as early as possible and sleep as late as possible, just hide in my bed all the time.  

At work a lot of my coworkers would complain about cheap customers and bad tips ect I started doing it too. My whole life revolved around feeling sorry for myself, complaining and being ungrateful.

I also noticed that everyone around me did it too, my customers would complain about all the road construction, the weather, politics and the economy.

I would always complain to my family, friends and coworkers about, living at home still, my crappy car, my stupid job, how that guy wouldn't date me ect.

My whole life had become a black hole of negativity sucking everything positive out. I wasn't happy, I missed the person I was a few years ago.

I don't know what motivated me to change my thinking, but I'm really trying to be positive about everything. I'm thankful to have a good job, a car that runs and a roof over my head. I'm trying to move forward and make changes in my life that benefit  myself and others. Oh and I've started with my art again, so I'll be posting new stuff very soon!